I have officially been working at my first full-time job for two months. Two months! When I first started, I could hardly imagine what it would feel like to say that I had been working for a couple months. I know that is a silly thing to say, but it’s true: full-time work straight out of college is a swan dive into the unknown. But it’s been grand, to say the least.
There are ups and downs, whirlygigs and flipper-floppers. Some days feel like a monotonous routine of traffic-work-traffic-sleep, while others feel exciting (such as when I book a few meetings for some AEs or I eat at a new restaurant). But today I was reminded of how amazing and blessed it is for me to even have these days at all. How thankful I am to have ups and downs, because they signify that I’m alive.
Today, I told myself I would take life slowly. During shavasana at our weekly Yoga in the Park (I know, it’s amazing that we do this at work now…my job rocks), I focused on being completely present. I set the intention that I would become more present in everything I do, from something as simple as chewing my food and paying attention to how it tastes, to something as complex as truly focusing on my productivity in the office. I have written about intentional living a lot on this blog, but I think living in the present is a big part of that. And I believe wholeheartedly that being 100% present in everything I do really helps me thrive as an individual. I am more productive, happier, and healthier when I practice presence.
So this evening, as Chris was hard at work in the ED, I took myself on a dinner date. I ate at a vegan cafe that I’ve been dying to try but Chris hasn’t been interested in. I brought my book and my headphones. I ordered an avocado roll and dou hua and a latte (and I even spoke to the owner in Chinese!!). I chewed my food. I tasted my dessert. I burnt my tongue on my coffee. And I read. I fell in love again and again with every breath I took because this experience of solitude amid the busyness of my days felt truly magical.
Take a breath. Realize that you’re here. It’s okay if you don’t know why yet, but you’re here. So be present.